I knew I was strong when I faced and overcame my extreme fears in order to have the natural drug free and gentle births with my beautiful children that I so dearly wanted. That was a big mountain and I wanted to shout from the top of it to let other women know what was possible for them too…..
Yet here I am several years later and I am still learning how powerful I truly am….so powerful in fact, that I was able to manifest a physical injury in my body (my back in this case for the first time in my life) in order to avoid stepping into my own big shoes that were already there waiting for me….and yet I was resisting and all my silly head nonsense got in the way…..after all, who was I to be so great or magnificent?
Thank goodness I came to my senses and now that I am embracing my next big step (which I promise to tell you all about when it is finally created) it is easing up my body, releasing the stuck-ness (and pain) and I am back on the road to healing ~ and would love it if you could send some healing vibes this way!!
The funny thing is, the injury taught me yet again that I am a powerful creator (I would have liked a more gentle lesson but this was a very tough one) It not only forced me to stop running so fast, it actually stopped me in my tracks and gave me plenty of time to reflect, gain more self awareness than ever before and dig around in places inside of myself that I hadn’t been for a LONG time.
Childhood stuff that I thought was well and truly dealt with already started to come up to the surface and raise it’s ugly head. Amazing how that happens and a whole new layer is revealed when you least expect it.
This is what illness or injury does – at least it did for me – and I guess the ‘gift’ in this is the awareness that it brings, the emotional release and the shift that results in order to step into the next level of our consciousness or evolution, the very thing we need to do here on this planet if we would only let go of the struggle with ourself and trust…..If we are to look for something positive in all of this, there it is.
So the next time we speak, I hope to give you news of more positive creations in my world (got to use those super powers in a better way from now on lol) and I would love to hear where you are at with your journey, what mountains you are yet to climb, the ones you have mastered and of course your happy news! Please drop me a note here or leave one below the post.
Yours in loving reflection,